Me: To be continued

Next time I write here, I will be somewhere else. I might even be someone else. A new home, and a new job, and lots of things I don't even know I will have and be. Behavioral psychologists claim that your outside actions influence the inner self? Say you want to quit smoking and you always smoke after work in one particular coffee shop, behaviorists will tell to you stop going to the coffee shop altogether so that you disassociate with the behaviors you had there. To take yourself away from yourself.

Change happens from outside and travels inward. Pretty simple idea. So my environment here is part of my identity. When I leave, I will eventually center myself around different things and different places. Things and places that will become the everyday fabric of my life. Patterns and people will work their way into me and slowly I will be a corner at 7:45 am with a sharp turn, and a long walk from a parking lot across campus, a local park, a late night haunt with live music and a little perch on which to sit and watch, to absorb the life into me.

I will still be me. Obviously. I will still be the same. But changing and different. I will be just like the word "still," which in one place can mean "to remain the same" and somewhere else can mean "to continue on." Still and still moving. Still and still changing. Still and still becoming. Still myself.